HOW SHOULD A PERSON BE?

when i am not sure what to write about, but i know that i need to write in order to feel right side up again

i think about things that i have been stuck on lately

i think about where my mind has been spending most of it’s time

these things are often books i am reading, shows i am watching, or girls i am friends with

today specifically, i am thinking about one book and one friend

the book is called “how should a person be?” and the narrator is weird and freaky and tragic and entirely loveable

maybe i am that, i know i am freaky so maybe that means i am loveable too

the friend is called jacquelyn and she is smarter than me and i think knows a lot more than me

i am gripped by her friendship and im trying to figure out why

i want her to like me so badly if we were in kindergarten together i would give her my lunch money

i tend to confuse the book i am reading and my real life- meaning, i blend them into one

in the book, the narrator also has a new friend who she would give her lunch money too

her name is margeaux

margeaux in the book, jacquelyn in my life